Kinesiophobia- The Fear of Movement

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Kinesiophobia is defined as “the fear of moving. In the world of physiotherapy, it is a well documented disorder where a person believes that movement can cause more injury and pain.” (http://www.professionalptandtraining.com/general-health-information/what-is-kinesiophobia/)

I have kinesiophobia. After years of chronic pain, and inflammation, I’ve developed a really intense fear of movement. I can walk for a short duration but anything more and I’m terrified of injury. I fear it will lead to more pain and suffering. People say I should try and move more, try to go for walks, but they don’t seem to understand how paralyzing the fear is. But today I met with my new physiotherapist and guys, she understood it. We had an honest, open conversation about it and I finally feel heard and listened to.

I’ve understood for a long time that I am stuck in a pain cycle. I have pain, I move less, I get tighter, I have pain, I move less, I get tighter and so on and so on. But I’ve never seen a way out of that cycle or thought it was possible. Until today. I think I’ve finally met the physiotherapist that is going to help me change my life. It’s going to be a slow process but I left today feeling so hopeful.  We’re going to start with very small movements along with a lot of deep breathing and taking the time to mentally reassure myself that I am safe and that the movements will not harm me. That’s it. That’s where we’re starting. No long involved exercises on multiple sheets of paper. Just simple small movements and no pressure.

So tonight that is my goal. To do a series of 4 small movements 10 times without fear. Or at least with less fear. I’ll let you know how it goes.

Have you had experience with Kinesiophobia? How did it affect your life?

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HAWMC # 3- Favourite Quote

 

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Wego Health is hosting a health activist writer’s challenge this month and I’ve decided to participate. Each day of the month in November, we are given a topic to write about. 30 posts in 30 days?!?!?-we’ll see if I’m up to the challenge.

Today’s Topic-

Quotation Inspiration. Find a quote that inspires you.

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I have this quote hanging on the wall in my home. I needed it there to remind me to keep getting up, to keep fighting and to keep trying. We all fall down, we can even be knocked down but to be able to find the strength to rise again, that is what truly matters.

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The HAWMC-#2 The Writing Process

 

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Wego Health is hosting a health activist writer’s challenge this month and I’ve decided to participate. Each day of the month in November, we are given a topic to write about. 30 posts in 30 days?!?!?-we’ll see if I’m up to the challenge.

Today’s Topic-

What’s the blogging/ writing process look like for you?

I usually write best when I’m inspired. I’ll see something on the news, or something will happen in my life that moves me to write. I want to inform others about what it’s like to live with a chronic illness but I also want to sound hopeful for the future. (This gal isn’t giving up).

I know other bloggers who have their posts scheduled way in advance, but I’m more of a last minute kind of girl. I usually write the night before, while the ideas and topics are fresh in my mind and I’m still excited about them.

What topics would you like to hear more about?

 

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This is Me at 40

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Tomorrow is my 40th birthday. I find that hard to believe. I feel permanently 18 years old in my head, maybe that’s a good thing? Maybe I’ll be young forever that way. In some ways I feel so much younger than my age and in some ways I feel so much older. My mind may be young but this body is old. It’s seen so much pain and illness for a 40 year old. At least I think so. But the reality is- this is me at 40.

This is me at 40, my laugh hasn’t changed, my eyes are still green, my hair is till brown (so far). I’m married to my best friend who looks at me with love and acceptance, who holds my hand and is so patient.

This is me at 40, my son is 15. He’s an amazing human being who I helped create and watching him grow and change is my absolute privilege.

This is me at 40, my body hurts, my head spins, I’m tired and often can’t sleep but I have family and friends who love me, who hold me up when I feel like I don’t have the strength to go on.

This is me at 40, I have good days and bad days. I wish I was smarter, thinner, prettier. I can’t do the job I love, but I have still found some way to share and give back even if it’s not the way I  thought it would be.

This is me at 40, I love coffee, and cups of tea. I love reading and writing and I watch way too much TV. I love movies, and the smell of the library and the sound of a new book being opened. I love to sing, I used to dance, I love pizza and ice cream. I love to travel and Disney is my happy place. I love my house and the feel of my husbands hand in mine.

This is me at 40 and I am grateful.

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